Its 4am

I can't believe that I am not asleep. I leave tomorrow for Southern California and need the rest I'm sure. For some reason, my body just won't relax right now. I'm thinking that it might have something to do with the fact that I've basically been in bed for the past 4 days. Maybe I'm all rested out at this moment. This chemo round has been a doozy. Much worst than the first and up until this evening I felt like there was no end in sight. Nausea is absolutely a terrible thing. I never really knew what people were going through, but now my sympathy, say, for pregnant women, has gone up 100%. To think that a woman can go through those feelings for 3 months or more is incredible and excrutiating to imagine. I can truly barely make it four days.

My friend Mike suggested that I ask for a different anti-nausea med today, which I did, and which finally yielded some relief for me. To say that I've felt like I was run over by a truck is an understatement. Its indescribable really. But, this evening I finally started feeling somewhat normal again. I do think I still have a ways to go, but I think I'm out of the hole that I've been in. Thank goodness. I'm so relieved that I am no longer dreading the flight tomorrow.

I'll be in So. Cal for Romy's wedding and to see girlfriends and Erik for a few days. On the 1st I'll head to Boise and spend the week with my mom in Weiser. Dillon and Cerra will come up from Utah, as will Alethea, Eric and their kids. Jim and Nikki will come up from Boise too. I'm so looking forward to seeing everyone and relaxing in the sunshine, which we've had very little of in Nome this summer. On my way home I'll stop in Anchorage for my third chemo treatment.

Hope this finds you well and that you had a much sleepier night than I.

Oh, one last thing. . . I don't have a scrap of hair left on my head and I have to say, a bald head feels kinda cool. Its amazingly soft and although it is still pretty shocking to look at myself, it is nice that at this time I don't have to mess with my hair.