Chemo #8 - Last One! Ever!

I am so completely filled with LOVE as I read the responses both in the comments and through personal emails that I have recieved since my last post. Who knew a video would elicit such reaction? Thank you so much for taking the time to write and fill me up with such warmth. And to my uncle Marky. . . I just love you so much and can't wait to see you in December! I love all of you (you know who you are). Romy, Jamie. . . the two of you made me feel like I had arms around me the other day. Thank you so much for that. Oh and Carol, Brad, and all you precious little Whitings; Michelle, Lindy, Christopher, and Anthony, I just absolutely can't stand waiting a minute longer to see you again. Thanks for always keeping up on my blog and sending me such great messages. I love you guys so darn much! December is going to be THE BEST!

There is definitely something different about hearing a voice, seeing a face, and watching the real expressions on someone that is not possible to really grasp through writing. I love to write and it is a tool that I use daily to stay grounded. But, I must admit, my reaction was pretty strong when I watched the video clip I did the other day too. It occurred to me that it would have been kind of interesting to have kept a video journal as well as my written one through these past few months. There is a perspective from a video that you just can't get any other way. But, I didn't and that is okay. I did however decide that on my last day of chemotherapy I would do another video (or 4 actually) to chronicle that day, which I have happily coined my Chemoversary. I feel strongly that I need to find every reason that I can to celebrate and this day, this completion, this survival is certainly deserving of that. I survived Chemo! Hence, Nov. 20th is a new special day for me. It will forever be my Chemoversary. . . may I never have to survive THAT again!!!! I did a few video clips throughout the day so check them out if you'd like.

And, no, this blog is not morphing into a video blog. This is it on the videos for a while. . . Don't worry if they bore you and you don't want to watch them. I won't know and it won't hurt my feelings one bit. They are really more for me than anyone else. In some ways I can't believe I'm sharing them, but, you know, sharing this journey with the most honesty that I can is what feels right to me. So, here it is.

By the way, I feel great. I feel happy and open about my future. And, I feel extreme hope that I can and will keep surviving! Yes!!