Radiation Vacation
Today I finished my second day of "simulation". Monday wasn't too bad, but today was pretty long. Over the past two days I've been molded for my very own "nest", drawn on from my waist to jaw line, given a CT scan and plenty of x-rays, and am now sporting 5 new tiny tattoos. First day of actual radiation is tomorrow. Yikes. I'm nervous, but I'm sure once I start it will be much easier than anything I have anticipated.
Before radiation tomorrow I have my first yoga session, which I'm really looking forward to and secretly dreading too. I did a yoga video a few days ago for the first time in months and felt like I was literally going to break. Its definitely going to take some time to get up to speed. I'm pretty set up for my fitness quest actually. Mike's sister, Kate, and brother-in-law, Dwayne, offered up a really nice elliptical machine, weight bench, weights, body ball, and workout dvd's for me to use while I'm here and Dwayne delivered it all last night. So, that, along with the treadmill I already have, and I'm truly set up with my own home gym. I am so lucky to have such great people in my life. I have this beautiful home to live in, a wonderful friend to live with who never stops giving to me, a home gym, an excellent radiation doctor, an angel of a friend taking care of my house and my babies, etc, etc, etc.
The few days prior to coming to Anchorage were among some of my toughest that I can recall. I was in a funk to say the least. I share this simply to also share that I'm not in that funk anymore. I follow a flow and find myself under the waves and in no time at all, right on top of the waves, while hardly recognizing either scenario until its finished. Although I've been going through this flow for 8 months now, I still have a hard time recognizing. . . or rather accepting how difficult and how great it all is.
Life is far too sweet to stay under the waves, but now and then there just seems to be no escaping it. Sometimes it really feels like I better just hold my breath and kick like hell to get back on top and other times it feels as if I hardly do a thing, but I'm still propelled back to the top because of all the goodness around me. Yes, this life is sweet. . .
Before radiation tomorrow I have my first yoga session, which I'm really looking forward to and secretly dreading too. I did a yoga video a few days ago for the first time in months and felt like I was literally going to break. Its definitely going to take some time to get up to speed. I'm pretty set up for my fitness quest actually. Mike's sister, Kate, and brother-in-law, Dwayne, offered up a really nice elliptical machine, weight bench, weights, body ball, and workout dvd's for me to use while I'm here and Dwayne delivered it all last night. So, that, along with the treadmill I already have, and I'm truly set up with my own home gym. I am so lucky to have such great people in my life. I have this beautiful home to live in, a wonderful friend to live with who never stops giving to me, a home gym, an excellent radiation doctor, an angel of a friend taking care of my house and my babies, etc, etc, etc.
The few days prior to coming to Anchorage were among some of my toughest that I can recall. I was in a funk to say the least. I share this simply to also share that I'm not in that funk anymore. I follow a flow and find myself under the waves and in no time at all, right on top of the waves, while hardly recognizing either scenario until its finished. Although I've been going through this flow for 8 months now, I still have a hard time recognizing. . . or rather accepting how difficult and how great it all is.
Life is far too sweet to stay under the waves, but now and then there just seems to be no escaping it. Sometimes it really feels like I better just hold my breath and kick like hell to get back on top and other times it feels as if I hardly do a thing, but I'm still propelled back to the top because of all the goodness around me. Yes, this life is sweet. . .
posted by Sasha at
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1 Comments:
Yoga is awesome. Beofre when I could afford my gym membership, I did Hatha yoga which was a lot easier than other yoga classes I have taken and I felt great. Maybe you'll be in Hatha. I loved it because there was plenty of time to focus on my breathing and rest. Good luck tomorrow. I'll be thinking of you. Love you, Romy
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