lovin' 31

today is my birthday and i'm feeling happy and alive and totally psyched about being 31. yes, i do feel a little bit old, but my feeling of excitement and anticipation of a really great year ahead far and away out shadow any ridiculous thoughts of being 'old'. in about 20 minutes this day will officially be over. it was such a good one and tonight was especially great. although i've been home in bed for almost an hour now, i am not yet ready to fall asleep. i think my mind is still going with all the awsome energy that i was surrounded with this evening. i had no big plans. was thinking about possibly going out to dinner with mike and erik, but even that i was feeling a bit hesitant about. its hard to plan something for yourself. i love birthdays and i truly believe it is the best day of the year for that certain person who happened to be born. i love to shower others on their day and i won't lie, i love to be showered too. but, i also feel really strange about being such the center of attention. i feel shy in a way that i never do and i feel overwhelmed that people are really there wanting to celebrate me. in less than a day of planning, mike pulled together a really awsome party . . . mike, kirk, dana, erik, kate, millie, brice, jason, izzy, kelly, nile, meghan, clinton, jonella, jessica, danielle, timmy . . . thank you all so much for spending the time to celebrate this birthday with me. it really meant a lot and i had such a great time. thank you, thank you!!! we went to a really good restaurant and had the banquet room all to ourselves. great servers, fantastic food, lots of red wine, amazing desserts, and tons of presents. it was completely and totally unexpected. i absolutely had no expectation of any of that, but i must admit i loved it. i felt so special and so lucky. i truly feel honored to have so many great people in my life and i couldn't have asked for a better birthday!

i really do need to sleep, but i'm just not there right now. i think i just feel too good. i've been up late all week so i'm definitely ready to get a good night of rest. i guess it would be a good idea to turn off the computer then.

happy happy day!!!