its frightening

to read back just a few posts that have landed in this past few months that i just wrote about. where is the misperception i wonder? is it now, this very moment? do i think i've felt more terrible than i really have? or is it just that this ridiculous blog is simply a caveat to distort one's real life into a lovely little highlighted story of vacations and pictures? or rather, could it be that a blog, because it is so public, is just the greatest essence of your life? the joys and the moments in one's life that you thought were worth remembering enough that you took the time to write them down and share it with others. maybe this is an avenue for focusing on the positive? or maybe that is just another dewy little sugar coated thought to scew reality too? who knows?

current status. feeling happy as i remember that wonderful time i spent with friends and family over christmas. thanks to this blog, its fresh in my mind again. does something seem not quite right about that?