tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-18415457Mon, 02 Mar 2009 00:29:34 +0000A Peek Into My Lifehttp://sashaswindow.com/index.phpnoreply@blogger.com (Dillon Hawkins)Blogger197125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-18415457.post-170796792633060844Fri, 27 Feb 2009 03:27:00 +00002009-02-26T19:19:10.611-09:00was what i heard today during a phone call with the patient services coordinator for my doctor in seattle. she said it calmly and matter of factly as if it were just a simple, given, detail. in no way did her tone convey the immense struggle i have had to get to this point. did she not know? anyway, because this sentence was uttered with such nonchalance i almost didn't grasp it. after a year of http://sashaswindow.com/2009/02/your-surgery-has-been-authorized.phpnoreply@blogger.com (Sasha)5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-18415457.post-3411066457372071830Wed, 18 Feb 2009 06:51:00 +00002009-02-17T22:11:47.681-09:00to read back just a few posts that have landed in this past few months that i just wrote about. where is the misperception i wonder? is it now, this very moment? do i think i've felt more terrible than i really have? or is it just that this ridiculous blog is simply a caveat to distort one's real life into a lovely little highlighted story of vacations and pictures? or rather, could it be that a http://sashaswindow.com/2009/02/its-frightening.phpnoreply@blogger.com (Sasha)2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-18415457.post-5740219294104307307Wed, 18 Feb 2009 06:20:00 +00002009-02-17T21:48:44.897-09:00is where i'd put the past few months of my life. is it the alaska winter taking its toll? have i reached my threshold at 7 winters here? i don't know if its that i don't remember how bad other times have been, but these past few months have been some of the worst that i can remember. i've had some good moments, i always do, but there has been an overwhelming dark cloud looming above that i http://sashaswindow.com/2009/02/somewhere-between-miserable-and-hellish.phpnoreply@blogger.com (Sasha)tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-18415457.post-2817317053210544318Tue, 13 Jan 2009 08:39:00 +00002009-01-12T23:49:00.202-09:00my chemo curls are finally loosening up and i think they are getting ready to make their departure. i am happy to see them go. my hair was finally getting long enough to wear straight, but since it was all exactly the same length it meant lots of layers, hence the farrah fawcet feathered look you've seen me rock recently. i am not a big fan of layers on me so i was anxious to get rid of them.http://sashaswindow.com/2009/01/so-much-for-virgin-hair.phpnoreply@blogger.com (Sasha)7tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-18415457.post-1431547905006614959Sat, 03 Jan 2009 20:07:00 +00002009-01-12T08:00:18.001-09:00to a new year, a new beginning, a new president . . .http://sashaswindow.com/2009/01/cheers.phpnoreply@blogger.com (Sasha)1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-18415457.post-754092954842887448Wed, 31 Dec 2008 04:55:00 +00002009-01-01T12:00:58.432-09:00christmas morning at the airportflew to boise christmas morning to be greeted by super duper snow storms and crazy driving conditions. mom picked me up at the airport and we headed up to her place in weiser. by the time we got there it was sunny and beautiful outside. here are some shots on mama's wonderful little farm. i just love it there. after playing with the animals a bit we loaded up withhttp://sashaswindow.com/2008/12/christmas-in-la-grande-and-weekend-in.phpnoreply@blogger.com (Sasha)3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-18415457.post-4572962856775524271Thu, 25 Dec 2008 07:21:00 +00002008-12-25T01:24:47.674-09:00i arrived in utah friday afternoon and have been going going going since. went out with my brothers, mom, and some of my cousins friday night. my cousin mike and his wife rachel generously took all 17 of us out to a japanese steakhouse for a really fun dinner.after dinner we wanted to spend some more time together, but didn't have any convenient place to go that would fit us all so we actually http://sashaswindow.com/2008/12/good-times-in-utah.phpnoreply@blogger.com (Sasha)2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-18415457.post-881440462557333078Fri, 19 Dec 2008 04:49:00 +00002008-12-18T19:54:50.006-09:00is where i'll be. home to me is just being with those i love, so that means i'm home in a lot of places. tonight i'm flying red eye to boise where my girlfriend nikki is going to pick me up for a quick breakfast before my connecting flight to salt lake city. there i'll meet up with my mom, brothers, cousins, and a few friends for several days. christmas morning i'll fly back to idaho to spendhttp://sashaswindow.com/2008/12/home-for-holidays.phpnoreply@blogger.com (Sasha)1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-18415457.post-1887748108395832052Sat, 06 Dec 2008 21:02:00 +00002008-12-08T11:30:24.213-09:00you may have noticed my friends and family links growing a bit lately and i thought it might be nice for you to know who those people are. so, let me introduce you . . .mom - this is that amazing woman who gave birth to me at home over 31 years ago. she has been devoted to me ever since and i love her more than i could possibly explain. (she's devoted to my brothers too) after a life spent http://sashaswindow.com/2008/12/introducing.phpnoreply@blogger.com (Sasha)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-18415457.post-2150891140967026430Fri, 28 Nov 2008 11:39:00 +00002008-11-28T02:57:24.912-09:00at 2:39 am. had a wonderful day relaxing with friends. they prepared an amazing meal. seriously the best turkey i've ever eaten. the trick. brining and horseradish. yuuuuuummy. played sing star for hours. super fun and horrifying at the same time. made the rounds and visited a few others, although not everyone that i would have liked to. its hard to fit it all in, but i sure appreciated those i http://sashaswindow.com/2008/11/still-awake.phpnoreply@blogger.com (Sasha)3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-18415457.post-535370506571071525Wed, 26 Nov 2008 00:19:00 +00002008-11-25T15:30:07.575-09:00its been short, but sweet. this, my second trip, will be my last. unfortunately, there are issues with the grant which preclude me from being the clinician here. since i am in the public health service and my salary is paid by health and human services, rather than directly from my company, i cannot be paid out of the grant money. its necessary to have that grant utilized to pay the clinicianhttp://sashaswindow.com/2008/11/farewell-mcgrath.phpnoreply@blogger.com (Sasha)2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-18415457.post-2814132539847743827Thu, 20 Nov 2008 23:58:00 +00002008-11-20T16:13:25.953-09:00all day i've been feeling like there was some reason 11/20 was significant. i was trying to recall who's birthday it was or what the other reason could be that the day seemed important. i just couldn't remember anything though. suddenly, it just dawned on me. 2 years ago today, i had my last dose of chemo. reading back on both 1 year ago and 2 years ago ago, i see that i was celebrating this 'http://sashaswindow.com/2008/11/im-forgetting.phpnoreply@blogger.com (Sasha)2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-18415457.post-1046600982806360593Tue, 11 Nov 2008 20:02:00 +00002008-11-11T11:04:40.082-09:00and straighter . . . ha . . . i wish. here is my new do (when i use a piping hot iron). its fun to see how long it actually is though.http://sashaswindow.com/2008/11/its-getting-longer.phpnoreply@blogger.com (Sasha)6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-18415457.post-1231804794035277639Tue, 11 Nov 2008 19:22:00 +00002008-11-20T16:14:32.075-09:00my consult with another reconstructive surgeon in seattle was a couple of weeks ago. nice man, good doctor. i would feel happy to have my surgery with him. without going into too much detail (i just can't . . . its too complicated . . . too frustrating . . . and too emotional), whether or not this will actually happen is a big fat question mark. its possible, but its definitely not definite. i dohttp://sashaswindow.com/2008/11/at-least-i-got-vacation-out-of-it.phpnoreply@blogger.com (Sasha)1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-18415457.post-8657982456314956618Tue, 11 Nov 2008 17:12:00 +00002008-11-11T08:28:52.076-09:00back when i posted about my backpacking trip with nolan this past august, i was planning to put up a couple of other pictures of that trip. a little late, but here they are . . .visiting with our cousins boating in boise with brian, nikki, and kari night out with amyhangin' with the jim, nikki, emmett, and new baby lily i still wanted to share some pics from our evening in millcreek . . . but i http://sashaswindow.com/2008/11/missing-pictures.phpnoreply@blogger.com (Sasha)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-18415457.post-5423158206471511222Wed, 05 Nov 2008 18:54:00 +00002008-11-05T09:55:29.204-09:00Releasethehounds.wmvhttp://sashaswindow.com/2008/11/dont-you-just-love-dogs.phpnoreply@blogger.com (Sasha)2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-18415457.post-6309409402495842410Wed, 05 Nov 2008 08:52:00 +00002008-11-05T00:15:00.589-09:00if you didn't weep with joy as you witnessed this historical night and incredible speech, maybe you were actually asleep. barack obama is an amazing man and truly gives me hope!! i'm so thrilled that he is my president!!!!!thank you mr. president, for enduring and perservering!!!!http://sashaswindow.com/2008/11/i-love-you-barack-obama.phpnoreply@blogger.com (Sasha)1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-18415457.post-2708551361012465636Tue, 04 Nov 2008 18:10:00 +00002008-11-04T09:15:25.993-09:00Imgoingtomissthisguy.wmremember to vote today people . . . unless you're thinking about McCain/Palin . . . in that case, please forget!!OBAMA BABY!!!!http://sashaswindow.com/2008/11/im-not-going-to-miss-him.phpnoreply@blogger.com (Sasha)5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-18415457.post-4144674791351520877Fri, 24 Oct 2008 06:27:00 +00002008-10-23T22:27:40.385-08:00was not the worst thing that could have happened during dad's visit in september. unfortunately his week visit here was particularly grey and rainy. i didn't have much planned, but i did arrange for a ferry trip from whittier to valdez. we were going to ferry over with the car (dogs too), and mosey back to anchorage. i had a couple of campgrounds reserved and a tentative plan to visit mccarthy http://sashaswindow.com/2008/10/missing-ferry.phpnoreply@blogger.com (Sasha)1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-18415457.post-6322180085323872588Fri, 24 Oct 2008 05:19:00 +00002008-10-23T22:06:38.010-08:00when i started learning to knit this past winter. i absolutely love it. i love to be creative and i especially enjoy doing things with my hands. but, the biggest thing knitting actually provides is relaxation. it really is the most zen thing i do. its my time to be quiet, to meditate, to sink in to the rythym of the needles and my body. you can't help but be in the moment when you're knitting, sohttp://sashaswindow.com/2008/10/i-was-instantly-hooked.phpnoreply@blogger.com (Sasha)3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-18415457.post-7023912409011890586Thu, 16 Oct 2008 07:03:00 +00002008-10-15T23:36:55.015-08:00but happily settled with a sauna.erik and i decided to try and find a getaway cabin for an overnight trip last sunday that might have an outdoor hot tub. after way too much online searching and plenty of fruitless phone calls it became apparent that an outdoor hot tub in/around anchorage is pretty scarce in the winter. there are a few, but they are often booked. i did however find a cabin with a http://sashaswindow.com/2008/10/in-search-of-hot-tub.phpnoreply@blogger.com (Sasha)3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-18415457.post-4617052488366988151Tue, 07 Oct 2008 23:55:00 +00002008-10-07T16:56:08.341-08:00perhaps because i'm down the hall from the laundry mat. you know i don't think i've ever typed those words and as i do, i can't help but wonder if that is the way its spelled. is it "laundry mat" or "laundromat". what's with the "mat" anyway? what does that even mean? anyway . . . i'm totally digressing from the point of this post so let me get back on track.i'm sitting in my new office in the http://sashaswindow.com/2008/10/i-can-smell-dryer-sheets.phpnoreply@blogger.com (Sasha)3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-18415457.post-1729014795595284168Tue, 07 Oct 2008 22:55:00 +00002008-10-30T22:38:20.465-08:00it doesn't look like the doctors i saw in san fran about reconstruction are going to work out. no need for details. insurance companies suck sometimes. 'nuff said. but, i have found another doctor, this time in seattle. i'm heading down for a consult at the end of the month, so please keep your fingers crossed for me.i had the chance to add on a couple of little trips around this doctor's http://sashaswindow.com/2008/10/another-doctor.phpnoreply@blogger.com (Sasha)5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-18415457.post-6127634156763879438Mon, 06 Oct 2008 19:20:00 +00002008-10-06T23:21:12.807-08:00is a beautiful thing. i'm pretty lucky to have found one of my very own. ha. i'm kidding. really, i actually just have a roommate that is bartering for his rent. he works on my endless list of house projects, he teaches me what he can, and he helps me out with the heavy lifting. he also cooks, plays scrabble with me, and has become a friend. we seem to have dropped into one another's lives at http://sashaswindow.com/2008/10/house-boy.phpnoreply@blogger.com (Sasha)5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-18415457.post-6713424657850720020Mon, 06 Oct 2008 06:25:00 +00002008-10-06T10:41:19.747-08:00is the bomb! if you want to try it for yourself, i'm not sure that there is a better spot to do it than coyote gulch. its in the glen canyon recreation area of escalante, utah. nolan and i experienced it first hand this summer. among other amazing things about this backpacking trip, the time spent tromping along barefoot, in the soft, sandy, shallow river bed was such a wonderful feeling. duringhttp://sashaswindow.com/2008/10/barefoot-backpacking.phpnoreply@blogger.com (Sasha)5